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In the first post you meet my blood family , now the game changer is here.
I was born in October 23. 1986 . at 7:25 PM as a scorpio. My moter had a hard time bringing me to this world , my birth lastet for 12 hours until I finally decided to to cooperate.
I was a big baby with heavy bones who weight more then 4 kg. , non stop crying and giving a hard times for my parents.
My father didn't like to hear baby cry, so every time I cried he would beat my mother , so she tried to find a way how to stop me from crying.
I first walked when I was 7 month's old , didn't like mothers milk that much , and didn't like diapers nether so I stopped wearing them by my 9th month.
Doctors wanted to tie me to the chair, and stop me from moving so I don't disort my hips , my father said no to that and he let me evolve as I can , I thank him for that .
As I was growing I was still a boy with extra weight (fat) , didn't like vegetables , fish , fruits ... my mother was fine with that so she was feeding me with junk food , a lot of sweet , bread , meat... .
At early stage of my life my medicine problems started, I was on antibiotics for more than 5 times a year , hospital was my second home , vaccines were my breakfast ,lunch and dinner . I didn't like hospitals or needles , I would scream my lounges out when I needed to do any of these ,and then as I remember my parents started to beat me , maby it started before but I was to young to remember it , for me it started bay the age of 4.
They were doing great with it , after every beating I'd be good , so they found the way to raise me well , and I became obedient , blindly listening to every thing my parents say.
Just they didn't realize that with each beating my mental health was crushing more and more , they didn't notice the tics I started to get , how Asthma and allergies started with big migraines ... they didn't realize that my mental , physical , emotional and spiritual body was falling apart.
By the time i started to go to school beating evolved , I started to show resistance so they needed to hit harder and to change stuff to beat me up .
But that didn't show much progres more the hit more resistance i showed , than mother started with mental abuse .
I will leave you , put you in some other family , I'm going to kill myself because of you ... and there she had me , again i don't whant her ti kill herself ,I'll be a good boy. And so it continued... . By the age of 13 i was already masturbating for 5 years 15,20 times a day , my sexual energy was already broken and fucked up , it all started to early . Father used to go to be a seaman so he wouldn't be home for months , while he was gone mother was having affaires .
There was a man who rent a room in our home , when father was at te sea he was doing my mother , but he didn't stop there he was also touching me and showing me how to play with my penis , I remember the words of my mother if your father finds out he'll kill us all.
These thing's broke me , but i found a way to protect myself from these thing's ,I was on the street with other children for most of my days , hanging out , playing football making grafiti...my friends were my guardian angels .
I was with them all the time till i started to attend high school , then i met drugs, Marihuane , Speed, Extasy... , then by the age of 15 my childhood ended, and my period of sex , drugs and festivals started.
At the same time beating stoped as I stoped my father's hand from hiting me and my mothers accessories that she used to beat me up with was all broken and I said it is enough ,no more hiting , you are not stronger than me anymore.
As that thing changed and I started doing drugs and stop eating , i wasn't a fat kid anymore and i felt great, girls started to notice me and my sexual energy started to flow and manipulate to get to the goal.
All the words that my parents used on me became truth , I was a bad boy , taking advantage of girls just to sleep with them , doing bad stuff on purpose to others , stealing , seling drugs , started to lie, fighting alot , I liked pain ... . I didn't know better that's how I learned to survive and not get seen who I really am.
This is from me for today , in the next post I'll write about my new phase of life , what i tought it's freedom back then .
AHO
