One of the most exhilarating yet most traumatizing experiences in my life, If you have been following this blog article you'll know how I started my crypto career/journey you'll know which projects got me into being a crypto/altcoin enthusiast, you'll know which project's I've promoting to the core and where it's lead me today.
In this article I will write about one of my most painful experiences and disappointments in life, I will give some details from personal things that have gone in my life (During the time) to understand why I was under so much stress, I will explain how manipulative the world of finance can be and how not all start-ups and projects developers have great intentions, this is about the Yin and Yang to my story.
How I got Interested In This Field
It all started with just making it family business which wasn't helping me on my end, you'd expect some progress financially after 5 years of working but 15 year's later all I had to my name was a puppy and a car that wasn't paid off. Not to mention all those years not going out and socializing and losing connections with people we call friends.
One day I decided to check out the Crypto sphere, one of the reason I never indulged into the environment is due to the fact I had not enough to invest in and I personally didn't see myself holding for 5-10 years (I was wrong and have written an article on this here) It seemed like a long time for me and I didn't understand how finance worked much as I grew up in the family business, I was more of a water y to put it or janitor that comes later on and cleans up everyone's mess afterwards. Not to sound like I regret growing up in a bubble but when experiencing the things I did from 2021 to this point, I definitely would've played different cards.
I got a point in my life where I finally fought my way to have something under my name something I could be proud of, hence owning my own doggo, to somehow prove to my parents that I am a responsible being, around the same time of getting the pup my dad thought I should get a car, now I wasn't paid consistently (like most family businesses) so the car dealer wasn't able to give me a discount on the monthly payments, despite the minor issue's the dealership did explain to my father how things must be run and a tax agent said another thing during another time my dad was hyping me to look for an apartment for "investment property" but this isn't to complain about my personal experience with my work life and being raised in a shadow of someone else and being brought up in a bubble. This is so you can understand everything at the end of this article.
After living like this for about 13 years I thought I'd give a look at Crypto even though I didn't have much to invest with, if you've read my blog on how to make money on web3, you'll be able to connect the dots to why.
That's why I decided to use Twitter and connect with active members of the community.
I Chose SHIBAINU Over DOGECOIN
This was around the end of May or early June 2021, I thought about getting some Dogecoin since it is way cheaper than Bitcoin or Eth or any other main cryptocurrency at the time, basically I was looking to get more coins in exchange of the small amount of value I had with my money. As I was searching through Cryptocom I came across a few other token's that were cheaper than $Doge and a new DOG COIN caught my eye, it was Shiba Inuyou can learn more about my SHIBA experience through the link.
I was new to the space of Twitter and was having fun connecting with strangers and having fun not realizing how deep the world of finance goes, I was like a child in a candy store, everything was new to me and I didn't know where to look, I could've sworn I had never been this excited about being apart of something like this in my life, within 2 weeks of being in Shiba I connected with people that helped me connect with devs and whales, the networking was real, people left me tips for my efforts and mind you I was writing articles back then too and people loved the enthusiasm I came with, I was being supported and life felt good, it felt good being a brokie voicing my opinions on the internet.
My Transition From ShibaInu To Saitama
This is where it gets intense, this is when my ego started to get the fuel, I thought I was making long shots connecting with devs and whales and people with millions of dollars while I had $410 to my name (After my Shiba value dropped, I had initially spent $1000 all up) one of my good mates on Twitter connected me with one of the Saitama devs who wasn't the dev at the time but he was working on filling in that position. I was told things and exciting stuff about "Their own app, blockchain, franchise" so naturally I thought, I'm late to Shiba Inu and Saitama looks like it'll do good after all the dev I was speaking to had made up to or over $1,000,000 with $SHIB alone, so I swapped my remaining $SHIB to $SAITAMA and I didn't regret it one bit.
During these times I grew a closer connection with the developer I thought I had earned his trust so he was keeping a good eye on me, guiding me, telling me how to act and what to do and which people aren't good and which people are okay to talk with.
The Saitama project had many potential partnerships that pulled away and each time me along with many other OG wolves would go after them, like a literal pack, we were hungry, but for the wrong things.
During the peak of the November pumps in 2021 a lot of old "friends" that I didn't see for at least 6-8 years started to me up, due to them being busy or last minute cancellations. I was getting recognized all over Twitter, people I had no idea were starting to follow me with large following's, I was made out to be a leader to a bunch of alt accounts that I had no idea of.
To top all of that off the personal things I had going on back home, the night shift job I was attending, the fud I was continuously fighting, which didn't make sense because I wasn't getting paid at the end of each time the issue was forgotten about or it was resolved. This dragged on for a whole year until I had enough and the final partnership ended between Lucky Roo and Saitama, that's when I decided to move on.
"July 2021-July 2022 - SaitaKan - R.I.P"
It was a fun experience but I wouldn't want to live that moment ever again.
My First Crypto Paycheck
After promoting with Saitama for around 6 months (Making it Christmas by this time) I got the news that my parents were getting a divorce (This is a complicated story and I will explain pieces to how it affected me) having younger siblings and one of them being in their final year in school and my mum not wanting to do her part in looking after the kids (for whatever the reason may be) I thought of being the responsible child and called myself out of the night-shift work I had gotten during that period and moved back home with my dad and siblings, I messaged the dev and explained me situation, the reason I did so, I was never making anything by this point from crypto and most of the people I was running the front line with were getting around $3,500-$4,500 a month. So I was told. I'm happy for anyone to make money this isn't one of those stories, I was basically asking for help from the dev that trusted me like a little brother (This is what I was told)
After our little talk, this dev put me next to a "Good mate" of his that was also a dev for another project, If any of you remember "ImpactXP" They eventually became "IXP" and had a V6 before the dev decided to disappear because he didn't have the funds to grow the project.
I was put on a small payroll, living in Australia at the time, you can say I was making around a weeks worth and just a bit more per month, I was glad to accept this offer as I couldn't do my night shifts and I wasn't going to have any income, so each month the money I was getting went straight to my car and then I was able to afford 2 weeks of groceries, nothing more.
No one in this space will admit they're paid or they were paid but some broke and admitted it so the community can leave them alone, it didn't change the fact of anything, just understand why people have so much time invested in this space, there are people getting paid, just becareful you don't be a donkey to the big mans saddle.
I started to feel like this after a while (more on this later on in the article).
Never Befriend A Manipulative Person
Now if you have never experienced internet friendships or groupchats my only advice will be to either respond as minimal as possible or don't say anything controversial, don't try to prove yourself, I was set up in certain groupchats with maybe 1 or 2 doxed people while the rest were all anon, I even questioned a few times in the chat don't these people have a life, how do they make money and we all just laughed it off, but those groupchats were a room full of lies, the majority of them paid to keep innocent investors at bay, to keep an eye on what certain investors say when the "devs" not around.
I picked up on this when the dev started barking up (once he got enough evidence to act like a true boss) so I was like okay there's something not right but all good, I speak with him on a personal level so I know what's going on behind the scene's and felt like he had good intentions.
But something didn't sit right with me, whenever I would make a mention of another token (especially during the times I wasn't making money) I would get a message from the dev to not support other projects or mention anyone he didn't approve of, I mean, it's my account, my profile, my investment (If I did invest in another token at the time and spoke about it) I was tricked to not support my fellow investors and grow their business all due to 1 dev being greedy as it didn't support his wallet.
The amount of times I was told to not respect the devs on the team the amount of times I was told to fud someone because it didn't bring any value to them in any form or way I was the soldier that carried out the weight, I was the bad guy, I was the one doing his dirty work because he didn't want to "look bad" as a dev, by this time people stopped sending me tips online, I stopped writing articles since I wasn't allowed to support any other project and network freely and the process these guys were doing was taking so long and most of their partnerships never lasted (except for the other projects they built themselves)
I mean, big names in the community started asking me if I was a dev, how do I know some things before others, how do I know what to say, It was copy and paste, like I mentioned early on, I just wanted to voice my opinion but I let me ego take over, I lost a lot of good friends, people that helped me at the time within the community, for whatever the reason everyone slowly stopped talking to me, everyone got distant, big names were blocking me, so even when I did upload an article or Youtube video there would be no response or supporters, the dev didn't even care, his only intentions was getting his point across to the person that pissed him off at the time and didn't care who's character it ruined.
When Lucky Roo's Gates Opened To Me
This is when I was told to be the true leader I am, grow a team and get people I can trust that won't betray me, we ended up getting 10 people on the team 7 alts - HAHA!
Eventually dropping down to 3 of us and then just the 2. (I'm talking about my personal team before Lucky Roo grew to what it is today) one of my close frens couldn't take the pressure with no rewards was too daunting especially with what they're going through in their life, I mean my personal story isn't anything compared to what this bloke is going through, do you think the dev gave a crap, NO! Only thing dev wanted was people to do his dirty work and this friend of mine woke me up to that, I couldn't agree openly but I did say I'll pay attention to the space, I was still a front liner, I was still fighting fights that weren't mine, I was still looking like a scum all so the dev doesn't look like the bad guy.
Eventually we got to a period where yet another potential partnership was coming to an end, the Saitama dev that had me under his wing wanted me to leave the crew I built, fud against them (The team I built) be his little puppy & mind you this was all pre-planned, the partnership ending and everything, I had people give me hints and details, I mean the Saitama devs weren't even promoting Lucky Roo - HAHA!
Forget about people giving me details and hints, the devs weren't even supporting their potential partnership but ended up releasing a copy project.
I do have to say, if anything I do thank him for opening my doors to Lucky Roo, but later on trying to squash that because it didn't benefit his own pockets anymore was the last straw.
Once The Dev Couldn't Use Me For His Own Benefits Anymore
After the partnership ended the dev from Saitama wanted me to keep promoting for him, around this time my dad and siblings were ready to fly overseas back to my dads maiden land, minimal to no money left, no job, no income, everyday fighting fud and countless phone calls which made it even worse, I mean why are we talking on the phone, I'm dealing with real governmental papers for my parents divorce and the house and everything else, I'm tryna parent my parents emotionally so they don't escalate the situation to worse than what it was, I was trying to guide my siblings so they don't end up harming themselves. This was all overwhelming for me.
So I told devs from both ends where I stand, I chose Lucky Roo, I personally believe the Saitama dev got into the Lucky Roo devs ear because I was cut off the team for a few days, I ended up hitting one of my mates phones up so they can help me explain myself, it was a hard 48-72 hours but I had made my intentions clear and got back in.
That's the kind of person that particular Saitama dev is, he'll help you only if it benefits him, there are people like this in business all over the world, but damn, imagine helping someone after you stop their hustle and put them on a baby payroll that doesn't do anything, overpay girls expecting different intentions from them (Oh yes, this guy is a freak) so pay the man doing everything crumbs while overpaying girls that hardly do anything because it's a good look for the project - mmmkaayyy!!! I was happy to move on.
The talk I had with the Lucky Roo dev was straight to the point, he told me he can't put me on a payroll or anything during the time since the project had just started and there's no money turning in the business, I explained my situation and told him I'll continue to help bring people to the business as much as I can, payments can happen once the company is making money, not fighting the fake fud Saitama had on every week was something I didn't want to deal with anymore - I mean I can imagine how it would've been if I stuck with Saitama and I was at the airport on a phone call talking like I'm going to solve the worlds problems while talking with my dad about his life and our life in general from that point on.
The last year I've been living on the rooftop in a ghetto without any income, no insulation, no heater for the summer no aircon for summer (Yes I have relatives but what about when it's 2am and these people want to sleep am I going to chill at their place? Privacy is important to most people out there and I enjoy my alone time very much. Imagine I was still a wolfpack and fighting fud this whole time during this situation?
I'm glad I woke up, I thank my big bro that opened my eye's in this game and thank him and my other mate for guiding me out, I've been at much peace ever since. Think about it, these 2 people doxed to me, I knew them and they knew me, I knew them more than the dev, I knew them and didn't know the anon alt accounts, what did the Saitama dev think I was going to do?
After all of this, the Saitama dev, the guy that trusts me like a little brother (so he said to many others before bullying them out of his life), made me sign a NDA and then tells the whole of twitter about it, he told me I was able to keep supporting Saitama and Lucky Roo, which is something I was already doing despite making my point with sticking with Lucky Roo, but around 2-3 hours after my NDA being signed this guy sent a BUNCH of wolfpack to attack me, especially another fren in the space, whether he admits he was paid or not, he was smart enough to not sign the NDA, but people that were close with me even attacked me without even caring to hear my side of the story. Imagine that... someone opens up to you, shares their whole life and knowing they're moving overseas due to family/financial issue's you make them go through all of this after they signed the NDA just so they can stopped being harassed and so they can move on peacefully, this is the kind of person that the wolfpack see a leader.
I was told to sign the NDA so I can't leak any of his messages btw - but the jokes on him because all of his messages have all been leaked and there a many more that I haven't seen with the homie that didn't sign the NDA. Maybe he doesn't want to fight me and I respect that, but a lot of people want to here my story and I am sharing it with you all today.
I didn't understand the NDA I just wanted him to leave me alone.
This is why I chose to move on, I couldn't handle all the unnecessary pressure and stress when I have real world problems going on in my life, I literally don't even have my own room forget about having my own place to live in. I can't put myself into a routine even if I desperately wanted to, imagine fighting fud during all this happening.
Ps. The NDA I personally signed was a scare tactic.
Memory Not To Be Forgotten
Still to this day I have PTSD and I am sure a lot of people do, I don't have friends in this space anymore nor do I want any, I am here strictly for business and in a professional manner. If we get along in this space I'm happy if we don't please move on, drama things is for primary school we are all adults in this space. So don't feel guilty when I set boundaries or put up walls.
I'm also an introvert I appreciate my time alone very-very much.
Additional things I just remembered;
There was a time when I would donate to people in this space and help, whether it was $30 or $100.... keep in mind I had no job, my intentions have been pure since the start, even then the dev would tell me to not, why because it made me stand out and look good, he wanted me to look like the bad guy all along. He would sometimes make sarcastic remarks about "Good Karma" God, he loves that word "Karma"
The more I write the more things I remember, I had met a chick that I grew up in this space with, we were okay friends until she got quiet, I later found out, whatever I was told to her or about my intentions with her to others word got out that I had the hots for her, she admitted this through an SMS one day and even made a tweet. I mean, look at the intentions of a dev. The girl is in a relationship. I'm not saying I wouldn't want to get lucky one day (Let's be real, I'm single, at this current time of writing this article) but messing with someone else's relationship is something I'm definitely against, whether it's BF/GF or Married relationship or even Just met relationship, I'll stick to my lane and you stick to yours.
Thank you for reading another article of mine and hope for anyone that has known me since 2021 and has watched me grow in this journey understand me a bit better, a lot of people have been wondering and have been asking me, why did I choose to move on, why am I staying quiet.
Simply: I just wanted to move on.
You can spread rumours all you want but time reveals everything, and "Karma" is the greatest revenge.
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I do feel much safer and at ease with Lucky Roo, the devs work professional and are always working on building the project, they are against wasting countless hours with fud and prefer we engage in a professional manner with people online and in real life. This is all I ever wanted when entering this space.
