I was just realizing talking with some friends that the last time when I was working to write a book was at the beginning of Covid stuff, so, 2020, probably March. Also last time I was consistently doing some interesting courses on EDX.org. What is happening to me? I know I had some trouble sleeping, but the creative process, the ideas flowing, and the unstoppable train of thoughts that was part of my usual day for years, all those things, are not here that much anymore.
I had still some attempts, I did post some poetry on the blog for a month, and then wrote some short stories for another month, but the big, consistent effort to do something great, something majestic, it feels like it is all gone. There is this emptiness, this missing brick from the wall. I do not know how to describe this one.
I use to enjoy the void, the non-thinking state of mind, too, but lately, my focus is not what it used to be. And I know that in order to regain that, I need to be consistent. To put in the work, day in and day out. I still remember one of Donald Shimoda's mantras:
You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it come true. You may have to work for it, however. (Richard Bach)
So, now the question will be, how do I start? How do I shake this sensation of powerlessness? In order to be a good writer, I think, you need to be true, be honest, and put in the work. So, what should I do first? Most probably, build it around, and let the inspiration flow. Find a course that I like, maybe, and do it? Start to meditate regularly? Will this be enough? Maybe.
Hmm, looking around, I did find a great one, Mental Health, and Nutrition, so this will be my starting point. And to align with this, before I go to work, I will have a nice egg sandwich with a slice of that full of holes cheese that the mouse likes so much in Tom and Jerry.
?Work is waiting for me, but not before my breakfast. See you tomorrow, have an awesome weekend! Talking about it, I need to search once more about the effect of awe on people. Tomorrow.
See you again,
